I interrupt this Euro Recap Special to talk about my run yesterday.
If you remember, a couple of months ago I ran a familiar route in my neighborhood only to land in the Emergency Room after. Somewhere along the way, I started swelling in my lips and ears and saw hives creepy crawl up from my toes to the rest of my body covering me completely. It was one of the scariest days of my life.
Since then, I haven’t run in my neighborhood for fear of have a relapse. I’m now forced to carry an Epi-pen in the event something like that happens again so I’m at least better prepared, but the anxiety of even getting near the area of when it started has kept me away.
I woke up wanting to run and knew I could head to my gym and get some treadmill miles or go along the canal where I usually run with my running group. Or I could run around my neighborhood. With my mom visiting, I have this luxury of options.
I decided to forego having to travel by car anywhere and run a route I’ve done nearby. I knew I didn’t want to tempt fate and do the exact route of the allergy scare, but I wanted to at least go near it for some reason–kinda just to see.
So off I went. Started out along the same path and when it came time to go down the bike path where I swear was the cause of my allergy attack, I bypassed it and went down a main street instead.
Once I had gone completely around it, around mile 2, I reached the end of the “tunnel” where I would’ve come out from had I gone down that path. This was when I first started to feel the tingling sensation in my fingers. The first sign of something wrong.
I felt perfectly fine. I stopped and took this ^ picture and thought about that day and how a simple run became a life changing experience. It’s never completely out of my mind. When I run, for a split second I wonder if it’ll happen again. I push the thought back in my brain and refocus but it’s always there. That little speck of anxiety and fear hanging out in the deep, dark corners of my head.
I went back to running and did a quick body feel and no welts or hives in sight.
I finished the easy 4 mile run and was relieved that it had been an eventless journey. I was prepared in case something had happened, running with my phone (which I usually never do) and with my Epi-pen (which I mostly always do) in my SPI belt.
It’s going to be a while before I can run without wondering if something might happen. I think it’s normal and just a part of having gone through something traumatic. Especially since doctors found no real culprit to the cause of my attack. I’m pretty certain it was something in that tunnel. A bug I ate, or a bug that bit me (I didn’t feel any), a tree, a flower, a bush, something….I have no idea.
It’s the not knowing that’s so unnerving.
–Have you had something scary happen to you while on a run?
–Do you ever run with some kind of fear?
Have a good weekend everyone! I’ll be back to tell you all about Italy 🙂
So glad your run was uneventful. So scary.
Ever since that day I got norovirus on my one and only solo trail run I am super paranoid to trail run alone. I haven’t done it since.
Yeah, solo trail running freaks me out. I’ve only done it once and it was my fastest b/c I just wanted to be over with it.
Very scary that you don’t know what caused the reaction. Glad to hear that hasn’t happened again.
Thank you!! I hope it doesn’t ever ever 🙂
I’m glad you’re ok and you “got back on the horse” to the site of your allergic reaction. Brave woman!
Glad it was uneventful! Sorry to hear that they were able to give you a definitive answer on what caused the reaction. I think that’s the worst part of all of this! The not knowing.
I’m so glad you got back out there. ❤ Now the last time you traveled that way won't be the time when things went wrong and I think that makes a big difference. I know that must have been so scary! I avoided the neighborhood where I got chased by that crazy lady for quite a while after that happened because I was too afraid to see her again. I've recently started going back through there and not a psycho in sight. It was definitely unnerving in the beginning though!
I remember that!! I hope they cleared that area of psychos for good!!
I’m glad you were able to back to the edges of the area that truly messed with your body (and mind) on that scary run. I think sometimes the first step of moving past something and not letting fear hold you back is confronting it. Way to go!
Way to face your fears. That sucks they never figured out what it was. I’d think it was something you ate, but who knows. I do run in scary places every once in a while – like in wooded areas in the dark, it always helps pick up the pace and heighten your awareness.
Wooded areas in the dark. It reminds me of scary movies when you tell the guy/girl to NOT run into the woods and they always do lol!
Glad that your run went well! I’ve almost been attacked by a squirrel on a run It’s was a bit scary!
EEEk!! I bet!!
I’m so glad you didn’t get sick again! I would definitely avoid that tunnel for a long time. I think it’s awful that you have no idea what caused it! I’ve been afraid on runs lots of times. Back in Philly I was always afraid of someone trying to murder me on my city runs and of deer running across my path when I ran in the woods. Now that I’m in Alaska my biggest running fear is bears and moose! I guess when we’re running we always have a chance of having something bad happen to us but running outside is way better than running on the treadmill so it’s worth the risk!
You’re right in that there are risks everywhere. It’s just important for us to always be aware.
I’m so looking forward to your Alaskan adventures!! 🙂
Congrats on making it through your run and facing the fear! I nominated you for the Liebster Award! You can check out my blog post about it here:http://thebalanceofus.blogspot.com/2014/05/i-got-what-whats-liebster.html
Thank you so much!